bloggie..got realli unstable last nite again..but im much better by now le..though not entirely okie..juz now..imagined him beside mi..u know..like on the bus..but..he seemed so far..so far..ni hai zai bu zai..?if wad he said was true..tat when 1 door of happiness closes..the other opens..then..i choose to close the opened door..there seemed to be quite a few no. of opened doors..but i choose to close them..all..i am very unfair..but..i dun wan to cheat mi feelings n others too..im still hanging on..maybe u wld say im stupid..im juz being silly..but..im juz being mi..tats mi character..super stubborn..tats mi..i dunno y..but i cld treat him as a fren..ppl say im weird..which i think itz true too..hmm..m i nutz?maybe i am..rite now..i still have him in mi dreams without fail..every single nite..itz juz like..seeing him every day..it became a habit..tat i wldnt find it unusual..i wld wake up every morning..then thinking back wad i had dreamt of him..during this whole period of time..i will tell miself..wads meant to be will be eventually..i will..i dun wan to force miself..juz let it be natural..if i still do like him at the end of the yr..after 'o's..maybe i wld tell him..depending on the situation..rite now..i had to endure..oh ya..dunno y..these few days im slacking again..by now..going to 6 soon..eng hw haven do..tml chi test haven study..not to say tues hist n chem tests..oh no!!cannot!!!i gotta go back to study!!hmm..but also nvm la..since i know i tml..tues..wun come online de..;)..sharon..u muz be strong..k..?tats wad i always tell miself..i muz..no matter wad..
